I don't want to date you ever again.
you hurt me so much, that it doesn't matter how much I love you or thought I loved you or how much fun we had when we were together.
You're not the same anymore.
You're a piece of shit, now.
I spend so much time worrying about you and your future.
Well, fuck your future.
I need to worry about mine.
and you're not going to be in it.
not as a friend, not as a boyfriend.
you only exist in my book as an untrustworthy, lying, cheating, drug addicted asshole.
you have redeeming qualities, but you won't ever let them show, so fuck off.
you can be a great person, but you don't want to, so I'm not going to fight for that great person anymore.
You say I'm too mature, to just enjoy being a kid.
Fuck that! I'm 19, I'm in college, I need to start getting my shit together, before I flunk out of college and really screw my life up.
I had my fun, I screwed up a lot, I may not have done all the crazy drugs, drinking, party shit, but I won't do that ever.
sure, I have bad habits too. bad habits that I should be "over" by now, but whatever.
At least I know what I'm using my bad habits to cope with. You don't even fucking know what's going on in your life.
I was a kid, I was immature, I was immature through our whole relationship, and now I'm not doing it anymore.
I'm ready to fucking go on with my life.
I may not be ready to go out with someone else, but I am definately ready to start really working on being ready.
I've just been lying to myself this whole time...saying that one day you'll wake up and be ready to go back in time and things will be the way they were...but it's all a lie. i'm kidding myself and everyone else into thinking I'm okay.
I'm not okay, guys. If you've learned anything about me ever, it's that when I say I'm okay, I'm lying through my teeth. But that's besides the point, I'm not okay, but now I want to be.
I'm keeping my bad habits, but I'm getting rid of you.